Life is ok now, especially as it is lunch. I have Mexican and wish you were here.
I was bitten by a wasp on the weekend. It is ok, but my arm swells up a bit with a big lump.
Perhaps the biggest change is that I will probably end my business. I have a job now and just don’t want to give it the required time.
It helped me before, but I think it is time to move on. Just uncomfortable about difficult conversation ahead with my business partner.
Must eat and return to work.
Talk later my best friend.
I needed to look on my computer for a document, and found a back up of my phone pictures from a few years ago.
In there I found my first pictures of you, including your graduation day.
Most women look less attractive as they get older, but to me you look better and better as time passes.
Miss you so, so much my precious friend and see you soon when you return to New York.
Hi best friend, I hope you are ok.
I really miss you. Did I tell u that I kinda lost my other best friend several weeks ago?
It was a pretty awful time for me (although much worse for her I am sure), and I still haven’t really recovered.
Maybe I never will. A lot of my enthusiasm for life disappeared then, and my weight has grown from the emotional loss.
Anyway, I will tell you more about it sometime. So much I wish I could tell you about everything in my life. I miss sharing with you.
Sweet dreams my hero, and enjoy your time in Shanghai.
Tonight once more
Tonight I sit alone in coffee/chocolate shop. Gosh I miss you soooooo much now.
Going home to sleep. Sweet dreams bestie!
So much I want to tell you, and it hurts to be this far away from you. I desperately hope you are ok my dear friend.
When someone takes my picture and they tell me to smile, I still think of you. Good night my best friend forever.
Yet another night
So sorry for everything. I miss talking with you incredibly much. I can’t wait for you to return here.
Dear God I miss you. I understand that if you are gone forever it is not your choice, but the sadness will haunt me for the rest of my life.
God give me strength now. I hope you are ok my treasured friend forever.
Miss you so damn much now ; (
So sad and sorry for everything. I will wait and hope for your return here forever my dearest friend.
Now once more
Apologies for my silence. Sometimes I lose ethusiasm to write much when I know you are not reading this.
When I see you read again I will write more.
Today I went to the place I was at when you first messaged me here. Sadly it didn’t make you message me again:)
Take care my best friend and see you in Beijing soon.
Late night now
I often dream that one day you will read this, so I cannot fully share my sadness.
But these are dark times for me without you. The most awful feeling drags me to crushing fatiigue when I am awake and the most awful inability to sleep at night.
So much to share with you now.
Whenever you read this…
…I will be so happy you are ok, I will be thinking of you and I will be ready to accept you no matter what. Always miss you.
I cannot believe the sense grief, loss and sadness I feel. I knew it would be difficult, but I so often think of you. I am so sorry.
I miss you so much, and fear you are gone forever now. The tears in my heart have no end.
Happy Birthday my best friend. All my best wishes from your best friend forever.